Jack Secor, grew up in a family that loved him, but where males were not permitted to shed tears. They felt it showed a lack of maturity and low esteem. He fought his own feelings to stay true to his father's teachings, but his insides ached holding back his emotions, the thousand of yet to shed tears and agonizing pain unexpressed. It took a trip to the hospital, a very caring nurse and his deeply driven dreams to rewind past memories and replayed them on the screen in his mind. He reflected back on his life's roller coaster ride that stopped at Love, Heartache, near Death and a warm Sandy Beach. Who could call out too and ask, "NOW MAY I CRY?"